So something happened today and I really don’t feel like explaining it, just know that I was very tempted to delete my recent posts about boys. I wont though because even though they remind me of unpleasant memories; they’re somewhat part of me now.
A poem I wrote explains my emotions:
just cant believe its now because of you,
I don’t think I can continue,
since you darkened the hue,
of my once bright view,
all I wanted was to smell the sweet sweet honeydew,
but now I have flew,
I think I can make it through,
even though I cant undo,
I can exclude you from my big debut,
so screw you
A while ago I wrote a post about 11 things I dislike about myself and I think a post about what I like about myself is due. For this though I decided to write 12 points instead of 11 because I guess that’s a positive thing to do.
I don’t judge people (or at least not a lot)
I’m quite pretty, although I only view myself as a 6.5/10 I feel prettier than I ever have within my entire life. I’m not Cara Delevingne pretty, but I’m definitely less insecure about my appearance.
I’m soft and squishy, again I have become more confident about my appearance; I like my curves.
I’m proud of my music taste. Its shameful, but I think I cant help but be pretentious about music and my favourites are: nirvana, the doors, lana del rey, cage the elephant, david bowie, wolf alice, sonic youth. But if you listen to Justin Bieber or 5sos we can still be friends, I just might say ew if you ever play them in front of me.
I’m not a basic bitch, theres nothing wrong with being a basic bitch but personally if I was one it would make me brain dead.
I’m good at giving compliments or at least I will try because I like making people feel happier
I’m kind, we all have our moments where we are not the greatest (me included) but I would say overall I’m a pretty good person.
I can be quite funny, often when I meet someone I am really awkward, but once I get to know you I will be cracking jokes left, right and centre (whether they’re good or not)
I’m a devoted friend/lover, this has its disadvantages, as explained in my last post. However, I think it makes me a better person, even if it can hurt me.
I have a cool fashion sense, yes I just said that I’m cool. It took me ages to find my style, I used to just wear hoodies and jeans. I think I found my style after going to a charity shop, I found out that I love vintage clothes, especially from the 90s.
I’m creative, I want to be an artist in the future and I’m glad that I can express my feelings through art (whether it turns out good or not is subjective).
I’m a deep thinker, again this can be a disadvantage because its as though I’m having a mid life crisis at 16 which is just pathetic. However I think it also means I’m generally curious about most things and I think that’s a good trait